You guys changed. In the past did you guys just say me whenever I don't know anything? Why? Now you ask just keep saying Wa you really don't know alot. DON'T YOU KNOW IT MAKES ME FEEL STUPID? Is it fun to make people feel intimated? Yes. It us true that you all are older and I respect you all. I always let you all walk in front. And whatever you all said I didn't talk back. But it just got worst. I really like having out with you all but I just sometimes can't take it. And sometime you all treat me like that without realizing. But hanging out with you all makes me feel like small sister but not only you guys didn't feel that and just think I'm a kid. I wan to call you all friend , chingu . But you say it Greek weird. And calling other people bigger than me maknae and saying ,oh.my group used to calling her that le. And what I thought? Yeah. It sucks to be me. Can't say you guys are my friends or sister . So now what. I'm really touched when you spoke up for me but you unknowingly did same too . I myself don't know why I still wan to hang out with you guys. Maybe someday I will get tired and rather stay home and rot. Or once school opens I won't want to hang out with you all le. I both want and don't want to hang poor with you guys... what's so good about being with you guys when I just feel nothing to you guys. Everytime I talked about big fam is to show that you guys are not important to me but I myself knew clearly that I just want you to hear. But... geez.. just forget it. I just wan to be closer with you guys but its just hard and sometimes you guys just say things that hurts. Only to me... not to Elene... and no one realized. Haha. Nice. .. once again. It just freaking sucks to be me.

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