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Don't leave me....
i'm your soul.


I'm a girl who dont care about othersbut not wanting to be seen by her trueself . Hates to be left alone or people leaving .Without that i would feel lonely and hate myself.

strike out.

Wants to be happy
Wallet
Phone
Laptop
True friends
Love from people

hearts talking.


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alternative exits.

Familys .<3
Bigfam ♫
Eileen .
Huiyu .
Litat .
Shengyong .
Shizhe .
Jiancheng .
Friends .
Gerald .
Ashley .
Meiling .
Junyan .
Arshad .
Elene .
Charmaine .
Lisa .
Ruby.
Jenson .
Kuanhong .
Siti .
Band .
Hsws .
Catholik .
Alumni>
French horns .
Trumpet .
Sec1s .
Amelia .
Esther .
Grace .
Joey .
Miranda .
Sarah .
Tricia .

my days, not yours.

December 2009
January 2010
February 2010
March 2010
April 2010
May 2010
June 2010
July 2010
August 2010
September 2010
September 2011
October 2011
November 2011
July 2013

thank you.

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Tuesday, July 30, 2013

You.. Please don't leave me... 
Please...I don't know if I could pass the rest of this Pfp... 


♥ 2:35 AM



Tears swelling up...
Refusing to cry...
Everyday in school is Like a torture to me now... Really hope everything will end.
Just one more semester. Even that person left me.
The one I needed the most. 
But it's okay she didn't say she won't leave me anyway.. 
I'm fine. I'm strong enough to take it.


♥ 2:29 AM


Sunday, July 28, 2013

Dude. I'm not going to talk bad about you. Neither will I talk good or anything about you. The three of them you can have them. It's okay that I be alone or just leave all of you alone. Like you said before I rather hurt myself than my friends. So... I'm not angry at you. Just sad that I'm not that friend you wanted. I'm glad that I have met you but wished that I haven't. 


♥ 3:23 PM



A record of today.
Hurt so deeply by someone.
Cried so much to the extend I couldn't recognize myself in the mirror.
The day I forgo all friendships.
Start of my new life.



♥ 9:20 AM


Friday, July 26, 2013

At first I felt that she was drifting away from me. Now I know that I'm all alone again. Felt abandoned.. Well Anne. Harden yourself up and getting running! Nothing can break me down now! NOTHING!


♥ 8:03 AM


Thursday, November 17, 2011

Its been awhile since i had cried this much...
But hours of crying didnt make me feel better.
Fell asleep. The next morning.. Felt nothing from nothing.
Seeing all those twits again. And still nothing.
What am i feeling now? Sad? Miserable? Dont care? Tired?
The only words i can say is. Dont know.
All those people backing that person make me think.
Am i wrong saying her? Is that called hard work?
With that person just put down the instrument when that person feel like it when that person have no mood?
And slack around everytime? With us helping that person's parts for tens of times and still gets it wrong in the end?
Did that person really put in any effort? Or is the person backing that person up is just fucking stupid or are they just like that person?
Oh i see that person's effort is only a few days before the competition la.
I see SO THAT'S WHAT PEOPLE CALLED HARD WORK!
SO THE FREAKING HARDWORK IS NOT THE DAY U GOT THE SCORE AND START WORKING ON IT BUT WORKING ON IT JUST A FEW DAYS BEFORE THE FUCKING COMPETITION.
IS THAT IT!?? ALL THE FUCKING HUMANS THINK LIKE THAT RIGHT!
AND FUCKINGLY HEAR ONLY ONE SIDE OF THE STORY?
So what's a person calling a person bitch?
A bitcher? Hmmm... from what i see the person saying that is worst than a bitch?
Let's see even if that person is angry with that person but what authority to say that of another person?
If thaat person did well , why would that so called 'bitch' scold or start "bitching' about her?
Angry? what's angry? Posting online and everywhere letting everyone know that you are scolding someone bitch? Ha. just get over it. Continue scolding. I wont let it affect me. Just take it as one of the training im having for the future.
Letting people like or hate. Im just wondering. Is there a difference?
Only friends u can crap all you wan and waste your time.
And without friends u have all the time in the world to think and do what u wan and what u need to do right?
All right. Continue calling me bitch. But i hope. One day when no one backs you up.
How ugly or how disgustingly would u fall. I wont bless you now. But May god curse you.


♥ 11:23 PM


Monday, October 3, 2011

I dont quite understand why i am upset.
I felt like im losing the importance of having that friendship.
I keep asking myself to dont lose that feeling but its really hard to not lose it.
Seeing them clsoe with other people.
Whats wrong wiht me seriously! People got ther own friends right and such difference in age they only thought me as her little sis! Why cant i find someone who is close with me and is my age!!!
All that i have gotten close with are all older than me and wont understand me!
Wae!!! I really hope someone.. Just anyone would see this and just know my feelings.
Last time i was really upset. They tired to cheer me up but it made me feel like a person like me couldnt be sad. Everyone seems to think that Anne have no problems. Always happy.. Why? Cant i have a sad period as well??
I wan and dont wan to see you guys...
I dont know if i am missing you all..
I'm not sure what and how i would feel when i see you all..
Happy or just no feeling? Just in the recent day i really wanted to see you all but now.
I SERIOUSLY DONT KNOW WHAT IM CONFUSED WITH?!
With them hanging out with their own friends? Am i crazy!?
Stupid me!!! OK we are leading our own life but we still know each other.
It is a fact that we are once a friend and we will always be friends.
Even thought u all have other friends too.
Anne wake. Like you are tolded even if u felt beign loved now, U will soon be alone again.
I will get ready for it.


♥ 8:05 AM